Thunder and Lightning
December 7th, 2020
PAX: Atlas, Margarette, Crush, F-Stop, Salty, Callalilly
Disclaimer: I am not a professional. Neither FIA, Johnson City, nor I are to be held responsible for any accidents or injuries. Modify up or down as you need and listen to your body!
-slow high knees
-slow knees in and out
-light dumbbells (5-10 lbs)
-Complete each exercise
-Perform 10 Burpees between each
-hold squat or plank while other FiAs complete their burpees, and move to next exercise together
100 Calf raises
80 Overhead Presses
60 Clams (each side)
30 Hip Dips (each side)
20 Single leg deadlifts (each side)
(disclaimer: I am a rambler and all sorts of emotional, lately.)
Depression and anxiety are terribly real, and they are also some of the most difficult things to discuss. My COT truly is a thing of trust and shedding some of my tough skin as I admit that I have dealt with depression for as long as I can remember. “Dealing” has come in countless forms, but it almost always is rooted in a desire to escape. In some stages of my life escapism took the form of the arts or my academic work, abuse of drugs and alcohol, or burying myself in romantic relationships.
Over the last decade, I know I’m not alone in warping my reality with social media. Only lately have I realized that I use aspects of my life that are typically healthy and good as form of escape. I bury myself in motherhood, meal planning, exercise, and family without really taking the time to address my underlying sickness. I have found that the only time I find myself praying and truly focusing on what matters is when I’m tending to my infant daughter in the witching hours, watching her doze off in milk-drunkenness. She is pure joy. Why don’t I take time during any other part of my day to focus on my deepest self? Why do I seek escape? Why don’t I see this joy in more of my life? I don’t have any answers, so I am set to do some real self care and dig deep to weed out distractions and battle my escapist tendencies in order to clear up some spiritual, mental, and emotional space in which I can work on my soul. If you feel disconnected, distracted, anxious, or depressed, I have no magic words for you, but just know that you’re not alone and that people who love you will understand any changes you need to make to strengthen your deepest self.